So tomorrow will be 2 weeks since my miscarriage started. I am still bleeding and still having some heavy cramping esp. in my lower back. Enough to where I have to take a motrin (800mg) to be able to function around the house. The cramping without medication makes me just want to curl up in bed with my heating pad and rest (i.e. do nothing). I really don't know what the deal is. I see the doctor on Friday so I'm trying to be patient and wait until then. Every time I have these cramps (which has been non-stop for the past 2 or 3 days) I am just reminded of what happened and the fact that it still isn't over yet. Not to mention the nervousness that comes with not understanding why this is still happening. I just keep reminding myself I've got today and tomorrow then I can see the doctor. I was very afraid of having a d&c. I wanted to avoid surgery if at all possible, but now I'm kinda wishing I had just gotten the surgery over with and been done with everything! The pain for a day or two would have been better than dragging it on for who knows how long.
In other news...While I was pregnant I stopped eating low carb. Everything I read said that low carb is not good for the baby. I added whole wheat pasta and whole wheat bread to my diet. I still tried to find the bread with the lowest carb count and the highest fiber. Pasta it is basically impossible to find without a huge carb count per serving. I stopped drinking sugar free stuff and when I felt like it I drank sprite or I did have a sweet tea a few times (it was soooo good! :) . I lost 3 pounds while pregnant, partially I'm sure from the break in low carb eating (sometimes when you eat higher carbs for a few days after restricting them for a while it kicks your body into weight loss overdrive) but also because I just couldn't eat large meals because I was feeling so nauseous all the time. I am now weighing in at 120 pounds. That was my goal weight! Of course now that I'm not experiencing nausea and I'm back to eating like normal (aka a lot) we'll see if I gain any of it back. I am back to my low carb eating and it does feel better. I have missed it. I have so much more energy and feel so much healthier eating this way. Just as I thought 120 pounds doesn't look any different (physically) than 126 but it does drop my clothing size and it looks better on paper, so I'll take it :)
Jakob has started being a lot more "adventurous" with his words. He now tries to copy us a lot when we say a word. He loves any red "borm" (which is barn, though I think he mixes the word barn and farm) Any red building is a barn to him. He loves it when I count to ten and then he'll shout "ten!" with me. He likes to pray at night and he barely whispers but you'll hear a little babbling then words like mommy, Bible, tree, amen. It is so sweet. He loves his Jesus storybook Bible and every night when we sit down to read it he wants to see "iggie" which are the piggies from the prodigal son story. He is still not putting two words together which is what they really want to see him doing. I try to give him two word prompts when he wants stuff. I will tell him "movie on" when he wants to watch a movie or "goldfish please" when he wants a snack. He had a meeting with the speech therapist at the local elementary school on the 2nd or the 9th, I don't really remember. Either way I couldn't go so Jeremy took him. The speech therapist said he definitely has a language deficiency but she was happy with his motor skills and social skills (yes, we keep hearing the same things over and over). In August we will have to take him back to the school for a speech evaluation. If he qualifies they will set him up with therapy a couple times a week. (Once he turns 3 he is too old for early steps so his therapy then is the responsibility of the school district) I am hoping that with the school having an actual speech therapist we will be able to help Jakob without having to pay the 600+ dollars a month that the therapist at the children's hospital would cost.
We were planning a short trip to Disney this weekend but we had to cancel it because of my doctors appt on Friday. Orlando is only about 4 hours from here so we can throw a couple outfits in a bag and go any weekend we want. Jeremy really wants to take Jakob while he is absolutely obsessed with all things Disney. The other day I was at the Family Dollar store in town and I saw all the Disney characters (minnie, donald, goofy, mickey, pluto), since Jakob already had a mickey mouse stuffed animal I got him the rest of the gang. He loves those things.( He says Minnie, and Donald, but Mickey is Loo and Goofy is Poo-Poo. Don't ask me why but he always says Loo and Poo-Poo.) My house is full of Disney toys. All the Toy story guys, Monsters Inc., etc. I can't wait for Jakob to go to Disney World. It will be magical :)
At least for me and his Dad it will be (lol)Anyways, that is about all that's going on right now. I would appreciate it if y'all would say a little prayer that the doctor can give me some answers about what's going on with me so we can move past this whole situation as soon as possible. I know that my heart will be tender for a long time, but I'd really like my body to feel better soon
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