Apologies first...

So I want to apologize first off because I know lately all I've talked about is this miscarriage, and I'm sure y'all are tired of hearing about it. I am absolutely tired of talking/thinking/experiencing it too. That being said, let me talk a little more about it :) ...

Friday morning I woke up and was having some serious cramping. I got up to fix some breakfast for everyone before we had to leave for my doctors appointment. I had a cramp that hurt so badly that I actually felt as though I was going to pass out. I had to take some motrin and get back in bed with my heating pad. Had my doctors appointment not been a follow up to see what was going on with my body I probably would have cancelled it. I didn't know how I was going to be able to go anywhere with this kind of pain. After about an hour of laying down with the heating pad I was able to get up again. I felt soooo nauseous. I didn't know if it was because I took the motrin on a mostly empty stomach or if it was the pain I was still feeling that was making me feel sick. 

At the doctors office I had to go to get the u/s first. The u/s technician didn't tell me anything, and I knew she wouldn't because I was scheduled to see the doctor right after that. Once the u/s was over I went to wait to be called to see the doctor. The nurse called me back, (I've never been to this office before, so I didn't know her),  took my b/p and then asked me if I was "post partum." I know this sounds really goofy but I didn't actually know what that meant. I've heard the phrase before, but I asked her "what does that mean?" She then asked if I had already had my baby...did she not look at my file at all? I guess not. I told her no, I had a miscarriage 2 weeks ago and am still having some heavy bleeding/cramping. I saw her face drop right away. She apologized and told me that she normally doesn't work with these doctors she was just filling in for someone. She kept apologizing. I was not upset, I am doing o.k. with everything right now. I could tell she felt really bad (as would most people) so I kept reassuring her it was not a problem.  I was thinking in my head that I'm glad she said that to me and not to someone whose m/c was more recent. When I saw the doctor she explained that on the u/s I had some stuff that was actually in my cervix (about to pass) and that she would try to remove it. She later told me it was placental tissue and she did remove it. She said she was fairly certain that after a couple days the cramping and bleeding would stop. She told me to call on Tuesday if I hadn't stopped bleeding. 

I was hoping to be able to get on here today and report that everything was great and I was done! It's not totally the case though. I am feeling much better. I've had a lot more energy today and gotten a lot done, but I'm still having some light bleeding and light cramping every now and then. I have decided to give it until Wednesday because I really feel like I'm right on the verge of being fully recovered. If I still have any bleeding on Wednesday I will call them. I have to say again that I absolutely am so grateful to have found this doctor. She is so kind and she took the time (I know she's getting paid to do it, but you can tell when a doctor is doing "their job" and when they really want to answer your questions) to answer some questions that I have been thinking about since the miscarriage started. She said even with the infertility issues we have nothing about our IF caused this miscarriage, and that was a load off both my mind and Jeremy's. She said losing our baby was really just a case of "bad luck" which of course I don't believe it's bad luck at all, I believe that God has other plans for us and this just wasn't the right time. It did make me very hopeful that one day maybe this could happen again, if it's God's will and we could have another "natural" pregnancy. Of course we still have our little frosty babies waiting for us too. Anyways, hopefully things will continue to get better and we can move on from all this doctor talk very soon ;)