My Mom would be so proud of me...I have a meatloaf cooking in the oven right now. The things we do for love!!!

Well, I probably should have posted this earlier, but we are still waiting to find out if Jeremy got the job in Pensacola or not. Jeremy found out from a friend that they didn't finish interviews till Wednesday, so they will not be contacting people until maybe the middle/end of this coming week. Jeremy's buddy from Jackson Guard applied for the job too, so they have both told each other that if they get offered the job one will call the other (as you are only notified usually if you're offered the job) I have been trying to wait on the Lord and not be impatient, which is why I haven't thought to put this up...we'll see. I will be glad when he gets a different job because this anxious anticipation is for the birds!!! lol

There is nothing sweeter than going in to the room to get my little fella up from his nap and he pulls up on the side of his crib and silently waves hi to me :)<3 <3 <3

Jakob saying hi...

O.k so I have to just say something y'all. Now that I've figured out how to get my videos back on here you are gonna see my horribly messy house more often. I honestly do try to keep my house cleaned up, but I have a nine month old, and I have decided that I'm not gonna stress about toys being everywhere, or not let Jakob have fun because of what people will think of my living room. Also I have nowhere to keep most of my things, so if you see something random lying on the floor, please excuse it , and when I have a bigger house I will do my best to keep things put where they belong (lol) Now here's a video of Jakob saying hi. Yes, I do make ridiculous noises, and whatever else it takes to get Jakob to look at me. I am now one of those moms... :)

Pictures from Riverside Park...

Mr. Serious (lol)

Silly boy...

Jakey's first haircut cont...

during haircut not a happy boy :( still not happy after haircut now he's happy!!! Jakob actually did really well for his first haircut. I was afraid that he'd be freaked out about the noise that my clippers make, I really need to get a new pair soon (mine are 8 years old!!!) Of course he didn't really like me pushing on his head, but he didn't cry much, and after daddy took pictures he played with daddy and got his "little man" haircut. He has been so hot lately and sweaty, I know he will still sweat, but at least he won't have a lot of wet hair. Isn't my little man so handsome???

Jakey's first haircut

before haircut getting a haircut

I propped up Jakob's matress last night, so his head is elevated above his feet and he slept much better. He must have been really really tired because he even slept in the room with us. He woke up once at midnight and once at 5 this morning, so I would say that he's getting more rest than he was. Jeremy had another person call him for an interview yesterday. It's for the same job as P'cola but it's located in South Florida. I don't even know why he applied for that one, we know we don't want to live in South Florida. Hopefully in a couple days we'll hear about the Pensacola job. We called yesterday and dropped the price of our house by a big chunk. Our house is definitely the best house in the price range that it's in. We've got to put in a request for our household goods to stay in storage for another 90 days. Hopefully we'll be able to sell our house by then and get a bigger place where our things will fit. If not, I guess we're looking at putting it in storage here somewhere. I am really hoping though that with the price change our house will sell rather quickly

Jakob had a *very* rough night last night. I had given him some baby motrin thinking that it was his teeth bothering him. He screamed till about 4 o'clock this morning. I knew then that he probably has an ear infection. I called the doctors office and they got him in this morning. He has an infection in the right ear. No fever, a little bit of a runny nose, no other symptoms. They weighed him and he's 20 lbs. 15.5 oz. He was 20.1 lbs. at 6 months. I guess his busyness is keeping him around the same weight. All I know is he feels heavier than before, though he doesn't look as chunky as he was at 6 months. They prescribed him some amoxycillin (sp) and she went ahead and gave me the cream for yeast infections, because he got a bad one last time. He is fine during the day, at night when he lays down it puts pressure on his ears and then he's in pain. My poor baby :( 

My little character...

* So Jakob has discovered the toilet paper in the bathroom...Any time I don't hear him I just go down the hallway to the bathroom, and the toilet paper is unwrapped and shredded into little pieces. Once he shreds it he tries to eat it, but I've caught him every time before he does. I try to keep the bathroom door closed because last time he pulled up on the tub and was eating the soap, though I think he learned his lesson because he has not tried that again. (lol)

* Whenever I feed Jakob he makes really funny faces at me and last night he kept "fake laughing" going hahaha with a cheesy grin. 

* Whenever someone calls on the webcam the computer rings kinda like a phone and wherever Jakob is he stops and crawls really fast to me because he wants to see who's on the computer :) 

* Jakob has another tooth. It is the tooth on the left next to his front top teeth. He has been pretty uncomfortable lately, and I think it's because of this tooth and the one on the opposite side, which is almost through also

* Jakob says hi (haiiiiiii) and waves to people

* Jakey is also learning to clap. He waves his arms together and says yahhhh but he doesn't actually clap yet. When he does something he wants you to notice he will say yahhhh and then I clap for him and he tries to clap. 

  I seriously cannot believe that my baby boy is 9 months old. I read someone's blog who said that the heartache of infertility seemed to last so long and now that my baby is here the months are just flying by. I totally agree with that. In 3 months we will celebrate Jakob's 1st birthday. There were times when I didn't know if I'd ever have a child to celebrate a birthday with. I just look at him sometimes and tell him what a miracle he is. In case you couldn't tell...I L-O-V-E this little boy!!!

Reading with daddy...

On Thursday the 20th we went to the Tellus Science Museum is Cartersville. It was a lot of fun. They had dinosaur bones on display and a "science in motion" display that had old cars and space crafts and stuff like that. They had a digital planetarium which was really cool, but I only got to sit through the very beginning of it because Jakob didn't like it very much. They also had a place where kids could dig for fossils. Little pieces of fossils. Whatever they dug up they could keep. We got Jakey a couple of sharks teeth and a piece of an old fossil...can't remember the name of it. The fossil digging place had little pieces of sand colored rubber (like the stuff they use at playgrounds) instead of sand, and Jakob ate a few pieces I think. (gross I know, but what can I do???) We try to keep him from ingesting everything in sight, but it is often a struggle. I had grabbed some batteries on our way out the door for my camera (just in case) and wouldn't ya know it once I had taken these pictures my batteries died. I didn't look at the batteries I had grabbed and they were AAA, so they wouldn't work with my camera. These are the only pictures we have of Jakob on his actual 9 Month birthday because he wasn't feeling too hot that night. I think it might have been all the rubber in his belly. lol

This is what happens when daddy feeds Jake...thankfully daddy said "I think I need to give him a bath"

Well girls, 

I have deleted my facebook account. It was fun for a while, but I'm kinda over it. I would also like to focus on my blogging a little more (don't hold me to that!!!) and letting everyone in on our little life here. 

An update on the job interview:

I talked with Jeremy this afternoon, and he said that the job in Pensacola is a brand new position that they have just created. The job is working with the airline (Pensacola NAS) doing b.a.s.h. work. (B.a.s.h.=bird air strike hazard) what it basically is is managing the landscape in a way that keeps animals (birds, deer, vultures and other wildlife) off of the major runways in Pensacola. If animals get to be a problem on the runway then they either trap them and relocate them, or have to kill them. (depending on the abundance of the certain animal) Pensacola NAS has never had a bash program before, so Jeremy thinks that they will be looking more for someone who has run the program somewhere else. The guy who interviewed Jeremy told him they had 2 people who've run the management programs elsewhere apply for the job. What does that mean for us??? Well, the obvious is that Jeremy will probably not get the job. We are praying though, and if God closes that door then we will be o.k. with it. What I'd like you all to pray with me about is the selling of our house if FL. If Jeremy gets the job in P'cola then we can live in our house till we can sell it. If he doesn't get this job then we are going to try to find a realtor who will seriously dedicate themselves to selling our house. If I don't know how much longer we'll be here in Ga then I need my stuff. We've been 3 months sleeping on an air mattress, without dressers for our clothes, or many cooking utensils. I'm just ready to have my stuff again. If we sell our house and don't have to pay the mortgage on it then we can either move to a bigger apartment or look for a townhouse to rent. (Since we will not be owning a house I really don't want to have to bother with a yard and upkeep of a house) I have so much to be thankful for, yet I have been feeling kinda down today, realizing that we still may not know what we're doing or where we're going after this Friday. I know God has a plan, and I'm trying to patiently wait on him...I'm sure everyone knows that point when you're trusting/not trusting at the same time. I keep trying to tell myself not to think about it, but it is hard not to when I'm in "limbo" as I like to call it. Just pray for me :) 

Love you all.

Thanks for the prayers everyone. Jeremy said the interview went really well. They will be calling the end of next week to let him know what's going on. I feel like I'm just holding my breath and trusting, I really want us to make the best decision

Jeremy has an interview for the job on Friday morning at 10:00. Please pray that we will know what God's will for us is. I know ultimately that He is in control. Love you all. 

Another prayer request y'all...Please remember Sarah (my new friend who's expecting triplets) she has been put on total bed rest. She's due in July, but they're wanting her to make it to the middle of June with the boys. She's already looking like she's full term, and can barely breathe, lots of swelling, so if you think of her say a little prayer :)

Dana's being induced today!!! Noah should be here soon :) Keep her in your prayers

A Mother's misguided prayer...

Matthew 20:20- Then came to him the mother of Zebedee's children with her sons, worshipping him, and desiring a certain thing of him.

20:21- And he said unto her, What wilt thou? She saith unto him, Grant that these my two sons may sit, the one on thy right hand, and the other on the left, in thy kingdom.

20:22- But Jesus answered and said, Ye know not what ye ask. Are ye able to drink of the cup that I shall drink of, and to be baptized with the baptism that I am baptized with? They say unto him, We are able.

20:23- And he saith unto them, Ye shall drink indeed of my cup, and be baptized with the baptism that I am baptized with: but to sit on my right hand, and on my left, is not mine to give, but it shall be given to them for whom it is prepared of my Father. 

My (new) Pastor taught out of this text on Sunday night and titled it: 

"A Mother's misguided prayer." 

Sunday being Mother's day I had already been contemplating my own Mother and what she meant to me. The choir sang Sunday morning a song about Mothers and part of the chorus said "you were there to hold me when my heart was in pain" or something like that and I remembered all the nights of crying in my Mom's arms not understanding why my life was going the way it was. Not understanding why God would not give me a child. My Mom would reassure me that God had a plan and promise me that one day I'd look back and see that. In the verses above Zebedees wife, (who historically is shown to be an Aunt of Jesus Christ, meaning her sons were Jesus cousins) came to Jesus and asked him something for her sons. She wanted her sons to be high in Jesus kingdom. What Mother wouldn't want great things for her sons? Jesus pointed out that  Zebedee's wife did not understand what she was asking of the Lord. This Mother was thinking of her sons being close to the Lord Jesus Christ. What she was not considering was the cost of her children being close to the Lord. Throughout the Bible and throughout history people have paid a high price for their closeness with the Lord. The Apostles were murdered, hung, beheaded for their close walk with the Lord. Men like Martin Luther and Paul Bunyan were persecuted and thrown in jail. The road to closeness with the Lord is not always an easy one. Sometimes God puts us through trials as he shapes us and molds us into what he wants us to be. Fanny Crosby, one of the great hymn writers of all times was blind, yet she never ceased to thank the Lord for her blindness. Many great hymns were penned out of a broken heart. Should we ask God not to let our children go through pain, that he give them an easy road? To ask this of God would be to possibly miss out on the great things God has for our children's lives. The great people he would make them to be for him. Of course no Mother wants her child to suffer, but we as Mother's must ask God to give us the strength and courage to let him mold our children, our loved ones into what he wants them to be. That brought me back again to my own Mother. Of course she would have loved to take away my pain in infertility. She could have given me money and said here, go have everything done that you can. She didn't though. She held my hand and prayed for me and encouraged me, and wiped my tears. I'm not saying that I've been through the ultimate trial, because I know I haven't. I have seen and continue to see others with great trials looming over them. I also know though that God used my trial to show me my own weakness. To teach me to depend on him. I am glad that my mother let God work in my life and helped me to trust God's plan. I hope and pray when the time comes for God to work in Jakob's life that I can trust God's hand and let him mold my precious son into the young man that He can use and that will make a difference in eternity. 

(I cannot do justice to the message Pastor Reed taught, but those are some thoughts

that I got out of it and wanted to share)

Jeremy's resume made the certification, now we're just waiting on a phone call for an interview...

Hannah's prayer...

Hannah prayed for the child she had longed for

Crying out to God for a son

She promised she'd give

The child she would rear

For God's perfect will to be done

For this child I have prayed and the Lord he has heard

And has given me all that I asked

He sent life from above

Wrapped in blankets tied with love

I knew joy when I held you that day

Like Hannah I had prayed to God for children

Wishing I could sing sweet lullabies

I longed to hold a child, rocking in my arms each night

I see an answer to prayer when I look into your eyes

 For this child I have prayed and the Lord he has heard

And has given me all that I asked

He sent life from above

Wrapped in blankets tied with love

I knew joy when I held you that day

Happy Mother's Day to all my friends...

I am rejoicing in the fact that Cat and Dana are celebrating this Mother's Day along with me. You both, including Ruthie and Noah will always hold a special place in my heart <3

Road Trip...

So me and Amber decided to drive down to Florida for Kara's graduation. The only person I told that we were coming was Jeremy's mom, and that was because she was coming our way that weekend and I needed her to know me and Jakob would not be at home. It was so much fun surprising my parents because I think they were not expecting it at all. It was nice to have all the sisters together, though me and Amber wished our hubby's could be there with us too. We had a great time having family dinners and going to church together. I got to shop with my sisters and an old friend and we had a really great week. We didn't get to go to the beach because the first of the week it rained soooo much. After that me, my Mom, Abi, Carissa and Kara all got that horrible stomach virus and were basically bed ridden on Wednesday and Thursday. We all just layed around- the little girls watching movies in their bedroom and us big girls watching hgtv all day. Thursday night was Kara's graduation from high school / first 2 years of college. All week Abigail had been saying that she was gonna move to Maryland with Amber, or move to Georgia with me. I had a feeling it would be hard for her when we left. This morning me and Amber went into her room and kissed her and told her bye. It was 5:30 in the morning, so she was groggy and said bye. A few minutes later, right before we left she came running out of the bedroom with tears streaming down her face to give us hugs. It broke my heart. She couldn't even talk she was crying so much. I don't know what it was about this week, I think maybe the fact that I wasn't rushing to go here and there, and I got to enjoy hanging out with my family, but I miss them so much right now. This week made me want to live closer and be able to visit with them more. We are still praying about the job situation. I know that God has a perfect will for us, and I'm trusting him to show it to us. The jobs in Florida that Jeremy applied for closed on the 5th of May. They are already reviewing the applications, so we are waiting to hear about that. We have had a few people look at our house, and one guy actually wanted to buy it, but it didn't work out. At least traffic has picked up on it and people are viewing it. I am excited about my first Mother's Day (with Jakey outside the womb :) and am so thankful for the Mother and Mother-in-law God has given me. I am so blessed