Understanding God's ways...

Well, most of you know that yesterday was our Pastor's Anniversary at the church. Bro. Wright came in to preach, and he said something that really stuck with me, and I'd like to share it with you. He was preaching out of Psalm 91, and verses 2-4 say: (2)I will say unto the Lord, He is my refuge and my fortress:my God; in him will I trust. (3)Surely he shall deliver me from the snare of the fowler, and from the noisome pestilence. (4)He shall cover thee with his feathers and under his wings shalt thou trust:his truth shall be thy shield and buckler. Bro. Wright said "God didn't instruct us to understand him. In fact, God said my thoughts are not your thoughts, and my ways are not your ways, God also said his ways are far above our ways, and we cannot understand them. God only instructs us in his word to trust him. He will not make a mistake, he will never do wrong." If you've lived any length of time you have questions for God. I know I do. I've accepted my situation as his will, but still sometimes I think, "Lord, why am I not able to get pregnant like most other women?" and now, after having Jakob the questions abound as to why I went through the whole ordeal and sickness in the hospital. It's so hard to understand when there's women out there who can have babies left and right and could care less about them, or care more about drugs or alchohol or partying then they do their precious little children. But you know what? God didn't ask me to understand my situation, he asked me to trust him. It would be easy to be bitter about how things turn out in our lives. I look back and I always said I wanted four kids (if I could afford them) and now I'm working hard just to pay off my little Jakob. (haha) Little did I know how difficult and expensive it would be just to get him here. My life didn't go as I had planned, but I'm not actually the master planner. Somebody forgot to ask me how I wanted my perfect life to be. :) In Proverbs 3:5 we are told to "Trust in the Lord with all thine heart and lean not unto thine own understanding." I think it is human to want to understand why bad things happen, we want to know that if we endure the hard times good things are on their way. We, and I in particular just have to learn that God's way is higher, we're not even able to understand, but we have his promises in his word that he will work all things for our good. These promises are not given without conditions. We are to commit our ways unto God, to love him with all our hearts, but how can we not do those things when he's done so much for us? God has a great plan he's working in my life, though in some places I wonder what on earth is going on. God has a great plan for each of our lives, we've just gotta trust in him, and even with trusting we need his help, but thankfully he knows we are only human after all.