My little gator fan...

Well, I'm gonna start off this post with the most adorable Gator Fan I know...isn't he such a chubbo now? I hope you guys don't get sick and tired of looking at his pictures, I just can't get enough of this little boy. Today Jeremy told me a guy at his work is going to see Dr. Ripps in December, and he and his wife will be going through IVF. He told the guy, "No matter what you have to do (to pay for it) you will never regret it" Jeremy told him he can't explain it, but he just has such a powerful love for Jakob. It just makes my heart melt to hear my husband, -you all know the deer hunting, working in the woods tough guy- talk about his little boy and how much he loves him. Now back to my post... Yesterday was a horrible day for me. I cannot even explain to you how stressed and emotional I was. I guess it was just a combination of Jakob having a very bad tummy ache, -as long as he was awake he was kicking his legs straight out and screaming- and the fact that it's been 3 weeks and I still hadn't seen a doctor about my BP and I was just getting really discouraged and down. I couldn't stop crying. I felt awful for feeding Jakob and then putting him back to sleep every time he woke up, but even the Mylicon wasn't working and I just didn't know how to help him. I think there is not a more helpless feeling than that. Jeremy called me at 3:00 and I just broke down crying while I was talking to him, and he said he was coming right home. Well, while he was on his way home I figured, if Jakobs gonna cry anyways I might as well give him a bath. He didn't scream at all through his bath. Once Daddy got home he was so alert, and happy, you would never guess he was the same baby that had his mom so upset earlier. We got him dressed and took him to his Gamma's house (Jeremy's mom) and then Jeremy and I got to go grocery shopping while Gamma got to spoil her grandson. We are very blessed that Jakob will take a bottle and breast feed. I just brought some milk that I had pumped while in the hospital. It was nice to get out just me and Jeremy, and we didn't have to leave by a certain time to feed the baby, we also hadn't bought groceries since before Jakob was born, so we needed food around the house big time. Today I went to my doctors appointment. This appointment was with a doctor I had never seen before, but he will be our new family physician now. He also happens to be an uncle of one of Jeremy's best friends. Dr. Campbell is a very nice guy, and I just got a really good first impression of him. He said that the Clonidine that I'm on is a very potent drug, which I have found out from experience, but he also said it's the best one for breast feeding moms. The only side effect to the baby is that it may make them drowsy...we know it makes mom drowsy. He looked at my Blood Pressures that I've been charting and said that I can go down to .1mg. He also said since it makes you tired to take it right before bed. Once Jakob is no longer breast feeding we will try to find a different medication that will not cause such drastic fluctuations to my BP. All in all I'm very pleased with the choice to see Dr. Campbell, and so encouraged that if I'm having trouble I have someone I can call now, I'm not alone on this drug anymore. Today has been a much better day than yesterday. I've gotten alot done around the house, and Jakob has been so happy and smiley, nothing like yesterday. Thanks for all the prayers and encouragement. Everybody remember to pray for Dana, her ultra-sound is on Friday! Let's all pray for a healthy growing baby (or two). Hope you all have a great day! Love, -Me