The Beginning

Today is the first day of the first cycle of artificial insemination. This morning I started taking birth control pills which I will take for 2 weeks. Kinda funny huh? A girl trying to get pregnant taking birth control. I guess the doctor said this will stop or control my cycle so that they can give me the shots to build up my eggs and get them ready for insemination. We are not gonna try ivf right away because it's expensive and the artificial insemination is covered by our insurance. Why not give it a try? Artificial insemination is different than ivf because the only thing the doctors do is get the sperm to the egg. The fertilization is up to God and the sperm. That's where we run into a problem because Jeremy's sperm are just not strong enough to fertilize the egg. Our God is a God of miracles though and we trust that he knows best. Despite what we've experienced and will continue to experience God is good. I know that whether I become a mother or not (and this is not said flippantly, it's still difficult to think of ) God has blessed me in my life and he will always have my thanks and my praise. He is good! I also think of the examples God has given us in the Bible of Sarah and Hannah. God knew these womens hearts and desires. When the time was right he answered their prayers and I feel he will answer mine as well. I know "all things work together for good to them that love the Lord..."