Hey, have you seen my dignity? I think I've lost it...

When you're going through infertility and seeing a doctor about it you pretty much lose all modesty (aka dignity;). They're always checking your ovaries and uterine lining so there's always the (dreaded) internal ultrasound. The first time around (when trying for Jakob) I had already had a year or so of seeing a gyn before I was referred to New LIFE so the lack of modesty didn't bother me. I was used to it. This time around I have to keep reminding myself that these people do this all the time...and there is no modesty when trying to have a baby via ART. None. Yesterday I went for my second appointment. You go into the room and there's this lone chair with oven mitts on the foot rests. I always laugh a little when I see the oven mitts. Seriously? You guys are making tons of money, I know because I'm paying you and the best you can do for stirrup covers are some palm tree oven mitts? Anyways, next to the chair is a tv with a dvd player. Why the dvd player is needed I don't know...On the other side of the chair is the portable ultrasound machine just like you'd see at any regular OB appointment. I had to pee really bad yesterday when I arrived at the office but the office was full of people and the bathroom is right there in the waiting room and I just didn't want to use it and for some reason I  thought I'll wait until after the ultrasound. When my Dr came in and started the ultrasound the first thing he said was...whoa! Your bladder is huge! Yeah, remember, no dignity. Not in any way. So my Dr knew I needed to pee pretty bad. Oh well. My uterine lining was perfect. They explained to me that the birth control pills and the lupron shots make my lining super thin. He said that's actually why I've been cramping and bleeding because my lining is so thin. I guess my body is thinking I need to shed the rest of it. Then he looked at my ovaries. He showed me the u/s and said I am super fertile. They didn't count but estimated at least 25 eggs between the two ovaries. He told me I should be an egg donor...first of all if I can't have my babies nobody else is getting them!!! ;) but also I reminded him of this little thing called OHSS (hyperstimulation) that put me in the hospital with 8 liters of fluid having to be drained off of my lungs. No. I won't be volunteering to be an egg donor. I'm glad some people are ok with it because it may be the only way some have children but I am not going to be selling my eggs to anybody. The Dr told me everything looks perfect and to just keep following my instructions on taking the meds. Today starts estrogen patches, which I really hate because I'm obviously allergic to the glue on them. I get big scabs where the patches were even when I wear them only for one week and then move to a new spot. At least I only have to wear four(in consecutive one week doses, not all at once). I also start the estrogen pills. All this estrogen will help build my lining up really thick to (hopefully!) be ready for a little embryo to implant. The Lupron continues until a couple days before the transfer, I think. I have another u/s and bloodwork appointment on June 10th and then they'll schedule my transfer. Transfer days are June 16th and 17th which is a Sunday or Monday. The only real side effects I'm having are still the bleeding/cramping, a little nausea at night and the random hot flashes. I just bump the air down for those and later when I'm freezing remember that I turned the air down b/c of a hot flash ;)