DISCLAIMER!!! I will warn you now this post is TMI but I've tried to share the reality of what someone going through this process experiences and this is it ;) if you're not comfortable reading about personal stuff you should probably skip this post
Yesterday was the Big day. It got here a lot faster than I would have imagined. I was not really anxious about it until Tuesday night. Tuesday night I had this freak out moment where I thought wow, I have to take all these drugs, give myself shots, wear these stupid itchy patches for the possibility of being pregnant. Then I thought well, if this doesn't work I'll have to do it all over again. I thought even if it does work I'll have to do this again to get another baby. And what if I do get pregnant? Then what? I almost died having Jakob. Thoughts of the future completely overwhelmed me. I had to remind myself of who is ultimately in control. I had to remind myself that God's plan is right and good no matter where my path takes me and he will give me grace when I need it. I was pretty nervous Tuesday night. Yesterday went by pretty quickly. I gave Jeremy a haircut. Tried to get things picked up around the house so I'm not sitting around making lists of all I should be doing. Before I knew it it was time to take Jakob to my mom's house. I was not nervous at all on the way to Pensacola. I remembered the last time we made this trip for this same purpose and knew all the prayers for me were working. I had peace. I know my future is in Gods very capable hands. Once we got to the doctors office I heard people grumbling about waiting for an hour and a half and thought oh boy...
We ended up waiting about an hour and forty five minutes. Not fun. Especially when she told us to be there fifteen minutes before our appointment time and come with a full bladder...After about an hour I had to go pee a little. I didn't empty my bladder but I had drank a (decaf) iced caramel macchiato on the way to P'cola so I had to go! When they called us back it was almost 6:30. We were hungry and I was not In the mood for chit chat. They asked me how's my bladder and I said it's about to explode. They said you may need to go empty it some. I said ok, but I already went in the lobby. The ultrasound tech said she'd look at it and let me know. She put the ultrasound thingy on my stomach for (no lie) one second and said "well, that's all I need to see, go pee for like 15 seconds and then come back" so I did. From there the doctor came in and told us we had 3 eight celled embryos. The best chance (medically speaking) for a pregnancy is eight celled embryos. When we had Jakob they put in an eight cell and a six cell. We told the doctor we still wanted to transfer only two. (Hoping for one baby not two or three!) The third embryo will continue to grow a few more days and if its healthy they will refreeze it for later. The actual transfer doesn't take long. You watch on the ultrasound as the doc takes a small catheter with a little holder on the end and navigates it to your uterus and releases the embryo. The ultrasound is on your belly the whole time because that's how the doctor sees what he's doing and there's a big TV screen in the corner of the room showing what the doctor sees. It doesn't hurt much. A little cramping when they're putting them in. Afterwards you get to lay there for 30 minutes with your very full bladder. And then you just get up and leave...so weird. The waiting room was empty. The receptionist was gone for the day. The office looked deserted. Now I'm supposed to stay off my feet for two days. I'm taking a whole bunch of medications right now. Along with my estrogen pills, baby aspirin, shots, progesterone pills and patch they've added a steroid four times a day and an antibiotic twice a day. Thankfully the last two will be done tomorrow. I'm so thankful for my cell phone because it is constantly reminding me its time for more medicine :) That's it for now friends. I cannot begin to describe how much your prayers and kind words have meant to me. This next Wednesday is our pregnancy test. I'm sure the week will fly by just like the last month has and of course I'll share my results with you as soon as I know anything.
Much love,
Shauna
P.S.- I wrote this from my phone in bed so if there's misspellings please forgive me this once. It's too hard to proof read on this small screen
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