Update...

Just a quick update...
I had another ultrasound/blood draw yesterday. Everything still looks great. My embryos have arrived in Pensacola. With Jakob they used embryos that were frozen at an earlier stage (day 2) and thawed them and let them grow to day five then transferred. Linda said they like to stick with what worked the first time so that's what we're going to do. She didn't give me an exact transfer date because it all depends on when the embryologist can thaw the embryos. I won't start my progesterone until a few days before the transfer so that's on hold for now also. Yesterday was really slammed at the RE's office. I walked in and there were about 30 people in the waiting room. Two people were standing and I stood with them. I think they may have to start looking for a larger space as the business grows. (He was rated the number one IF doctor in Florida not to mention people from Alabama and Georgia come to him). My friend Jillian had told me her friend Tara was seeing Dr. Ripps also so I decided to keep an eye out for her. She came in about 10 minutes after I did yesterday. We sat and talked IF and treatments and family and all kinds of stuff. It was nice because it helped the hour of waiting go by faster. There was a girl there who was having some of the same issues I had with OHSS (ovarian hyperstimulation) and she was super nervous. For my IF friends her estrogen was at 10,000 a couple weeks ago. Last week it was 3500. Normal is 500. She was very scared about getting OHSS. I gave her my phone number and told her to call or text if she has questions. She lives in Crestview, right down the road from my church. Coincidence? We'll see. After the appointment I met up with Jessi Senn for lunch. It was nice to catch up. I haven't seen her in a while. I am getting more excited about the transfer and possibility of another baby. It's kind of hard because I try not to imagine life with another baby, I think that will just make it more devastating if I don't get pregnant. But...it's hard when people speak to you as if you will get pregnant. I know they're being optimistic for me when it's hard for me to be for myself. I have been praying that God will give me grace and peace to accept his work and will whether it's the answer I want or not. The unknown is the hardest part of this process. There's nobody I can go to to make sure I get pregnant. I do know though that my future is in the hands of a God who loved me before the world was even created. He chose to send his son to suffer and die for my sins. How can I not trust a God who loves me that much???