Last night...

Yesterday afternoon I started having some cramping. It was lite and I kept reminding myself that you feel all kinds of weird feelings when you are pregnant. As the day wore on the cramps got harder. By 8 o'clock last night I had a really bad back ache and the "cramp" was pretty much a steady pain in my lower stomach. Pretty much like period cramps, but they didn't really come and go, they were just steady. I went to bed early and hoped that when I woke up in the morning I would feel better. I don't know what time I actually fell asleep, the last time I remember looking at the clock it was after 11 and I was still having the pains. Around 3 in the morning I got up to go to the bathroom (sorry if this is TMI y'all!) the cramps got a little stronger when I got up and moving. When I wiped there was this maroon or mauve-ish colored goo on the toilet paper. I just couldn't believe it. I woke Jeremy up and told him that the cramps were still here and now I have some blood. Of course I was upset. I couldn't call anybody at 3 in the morning. I didn't see any sense in calling my mom or Jeremy's mom when they would just be awake and worried too. I called the doctor's office and left a message which they said would be on the top of the pile for a nurse. The nurse called me back about 30 minutes later. She said that this actually happens fairly often in the first trimester. She said around the time of your normal cycle your body makes a cyst (I guess cause you try to ovulate) but that you need the cyst there to help the pregnancy survive and I guess the cyst can cause you to pass some blood clots. I told her that made sense because at 3 when I woke up I felt a lot of pain in my ovary and thought maybe that was part of a miscarriage. She asked me if I was cramping then and I told her no. She said if I start cramping just take some tylenol. If I start bleeding or get the backache again I'm supposed to call the office and they will want to see me. Otherwise I guess they assume the pregnancy is fine and I'll go for my scheduled appointment on March 19th. As I laid in bed waiting for the doctors office to open I couldn't help but think how blessed I am to have Jakob. I know that even if something happens with this baby that God will help us to deal with it and I just thank him for giving us the gift of parenthood to a very busy 2 year old boy. Thank-you to everyone who prayed this morning. I know that I'm not in control of any of this process. I know that God gave us this baby and only he can keep it safe. I'm trying to rest in that...