3 Months...

Wow, where has the time gone? It seems like only yesterday I had this little guy in my tummy, and now...well, let's just say he would never fit back in there(!) In another sense if feels as though Jakob has always been here. He just so naturally fits into our lives, and loves us with an unconditional and un-earned love. (I know we worked hard to get him here, but he doesn't know that, and yet he still lights up when he sees us, or hears our voices, it's really amazing) It is so neat to watch Jakob learn new things every day. To see surprise register on his face when he notices something that's been around, but he's really seeing it for the first time. Every time I hold him in my arms (especially the quiet times, when rocking or comforting him) I just thank God for him. There's really no words to express my gratitude. Usually I'm just blubbering and trying to get words out, but God knows my heart. It's amazing the depths of despair and sadness that you can reach, and one little life can turn it all around. When I hold my son I don't remember all the sadness. I don't remember the heartache. God is truly awesome in that way. He can take all the bad things and put them into perspective, and even allow you to be thankful for them somehow. Jakob, I've enjoyed these past three months, watching you, my little miracle grow and mature. I never can thank God enough...