How am I???...

How am I??? Are you sure you really want to know? Just remember that I'm allowed to be emotionally unstable right now :) It's been 4 days since the transfer and today I went to my mom's house, just to get out for a while. Taking it easy has been very stressful for me. You may think it'd be great, but my instinct when I'm worried or anxious about something is to get up and do things. Clean the house, reorganize things -like my pots and pans Jill- and I couldn't do any of that. The first day was o.k. I was really excited and kept thinking about what was possibly going on in my body at that very moment. The second day (yesterday) all I did was sit around and think of all the ways that this couldn't work. I've wanted this for so long, and worked so hard for it, and if it doesn't work, I don't even know how I'll feel. I know everyone's excited for me, but I still have to remember that it may not happen. I know it's hard to understand, but until you experience this you cannot know the fine line you walk between hope and reality. You don't want to limit God, but you have to understand that this may not be his will for us. Anyways, if I haven't answered your call I still appreciate the thoughts, I just couldn't talk at the moment. I'm feeling alot better today. I have had some light cramping -they say implantation occurs 3-4 days after the transfer- but I've never welcomed cramps so much before in my life... cramps mean good things could be going on!!! It's funny all the thoughts you go through, and please remember I'm on alot of hormones too. Only 8 more days to go y'all! -me p.s. My friend at the blog "I believe in miracles" is about 1 week ahead of me with her transfer, so pray for her also, she said her pregnancy test is in 4 days.