Everyone, meet my kids...

No guys, the transfer didn't happen today. I just wanted to put up a few pictures of my kiddos at the daycare. When I left yesterday, with the knowledge that I'd be gone for a week I got really sad. I told them I'd be gone, but they're only just turned 3, so they won't totally understand for a few days. I just have to thank God for giving me this job, I don't know if I could have handled this whole struggle with infertility without these kids. (this is my 3rd class there, so there's lots of kids I've come to love). As most of you know, I was a hairstylist for 4 years before I started this job. I loved doing hair, and I was pretty good at it. When Jeremy and I started trying to have a baby, we realized that things were not happening like THEY all say in the books and articles. I went to a doctor who said "oh, I'll get you pregnant, you just have pcos" and put me on clomid. (without ever checking Jeremy) -My current doctor says no, I don't have pcos.- Well, 3 or 4 months on clomid was about all I could take. I had such horrible mood swings, and the trouble with my heart, and I just quit working all together. That lasted for about 6 months. Then I met a great doctor named Dr. Ripps, who told me that the doctor in Ft. Walton Beach really didn't know what she was doing, and he was sorry I'd been through all she put me through. They did a dna test on Jeremys sperm, and found out that it just couldn't fertilize the eggs. The sperm itself was fine, it just needed help. Our only option to become pregnant is IVF with the doctors injecting the sperm into the egg (ICSI). That was not so shocking to me, because we'd tried so many things, and we're very young, this should have already happened. I knew that IVF would be expensive, and agonizing, so I'd better just go get a job. The girls at the shop that I previously worked at wanted me to come back to doing hair. I told them that if I was going to make it through all this I needed to be around kids. ( I know this job's not for everyone, but I really feel like it's my calling) I don't make nearly as much money as I would doing hair, but I am fulfilled every day. You might think it would be harder on me to be around children all day, and parents who are expecting second or third kids, but it's really not. My mind is on my kids, and keeping them safe and fed and entertained, and it's exactly what I needed in this time. I feel very blessed to have been there for these children in times when their parents cannot. I love them alot, and it's so sweet to walk in in the morning and have a little one say "Ms. Shauna!!! I love you. " It makes everything else worth it. Tomorrow the embryo transfer is at 4:00. I'm very calm right now, but I'm sure that'll change by tomorrow afternoon. The worst part of all is waiting the two weeks till the pregnancy test. (My test is actually only 11 days from tomorrow) Thanks for all the encouragement, and well wishes. God is in control and I know that. Love you all, and I'll report back tomorrow after it's all done. -Shauna