Last doctor's appointment?...

I am going to the doctor tomorrow for a follow up appointment about my blood pressure. I'm hoping he will be pleasantly surprised about it going down...we'll see. I'll let everyone know what I find out.

Good morning ladies...

Jakob has started smiling so much now! Most mornings when I wake up I am so tired and worn out, but when I lay Jake on his changing table he just smiles so big. That instantly takes away the grumbling that I felt like doing and makes my heart so happy. I really really love this little guy. He's such a joy in our lives.

Pictures...

Jake and Aunt Kara Jake and his froggie Jake all wrapped up

What a life...

Birth control?...

So last week I went to see the OB. It was my last appointment there till my exam next year. Dr. Hennessey was asking me all these questions, then he says "birth control?" In the form of a question. I said "what about it?" I knew what was coming, but was gonna make him explain his line of thinking. He then asked if I needed birth control pills. (in my mind this is just laughable) I told him no, Dr. Ripps basically said that it'd be a miracle if we conceived on our own and I'm not taking them. Hennessey just looked at his nurse and laughed a little. They've seen these "miracles" before. I did not feel like going into the whole explanation of male factor infertility, or the fact that the doctor had to use ICSI to fertilize the egg, because it was not gonna happen naturally. If I were to get pregnant naturally it would be amazing, miraculous, and frankly it would be kind of exciting, because I never expect it to happen, (not that i want it to happen, nor that I think it would, but every woman dealing with infertility would love to just miss a period, take a test and find out they're pregnant). I told him I've been on synthetic hormones for 2 years now, and I need a break. My body needs a break, and who better to take a break than a person who took 3 years to conceive anyways? He said it's my choice, but I'd better be careful... I don't want to be pregnant again for a loooong time, it was quite scary at the end, and I'm not ready to jump into that again, but I know my history, I know the struggle it took to get Jakob here. It's not like I had blocked tubes, or endemitriosis that could have cleared up. Our fertility issue is not going away, or getting better. If and when we decide to have another baby we will once again go see Dr. Ripps and his staff and we'll work from there. I'm o.k. with that, I just wish sometimes that other people would accept my reality. I like Dr. Hennessey, and I think he's good at his job, but I feel like he doesn't look at people on a case by case basis. Oh well, I'm now done with OB appointments. I'll see Dr. Campbell in a couple weeks and hopefully get cleared on the BP issue and then I'm done with doctors except for Jakes appointments. On the 23rd he starts his immunizations! Poor guy. My friend whose baby is 5 days younger than Jakob said her little girl cried alot after her shots. I just have to prepare myself for that...it's gonna break mommy's heart. Well, hope y'all have a great day! -Me

My home is quickly becoming a petting zoo...

I just have to let you all know real quick... I haven't had to take any blood pressure meds since Monday!!! That is 6 days! I'm still really nervous to get my hopes up, but I have been feeling alot better, and I have hit the 6 week mark, that's when they said the problem might go away. In other news, my husband brought home a 5 foot long (dead) rattle snake. He skinned it and pinned it on a board to go you.know.where...his office! Jessi said it is becoming his man cave, I tend to agree. The snake will join the deer head and the turkey tail on the wall. Once he hangs it up (it has to dry first) I will put up a pic. If it wasn't a creepy snake it'd look kinda cool. Better skinned ones than live ones in my office. :) Love to you all! -Me

Jakob smiling...

Pictures...

My precious baby boy (as Abi likes to call him)

Jakob snoring like daddy...

Remember like father like son??? This is why I get no sleep at night! :)

A little taste of fall...

Wooohooo! Yesterday we woke up to go to Niceville and it was 49 degrees outside. The high was 80 degrees, so it did eventually warm up, but it was still nice because there was a breeze. This weather probably will not stay, by Friday it's supposed to be rainy and then our humid weather will be back, but for now we're enjoying a little taste of fall.