Thoughts on grace...

I don't know exactly what it is lately. Maybe it's Jakob's upcoming 3rd birthday??? I'm so emotional. -It's not a bad emotional though. I do feel on the verge of tears many times during the day, but it's all because of the grace God has shown me throughout my life. I know I'm so unworthy. I know he is so great and worthy of my praise. Life is not easy, (was it Solomon who said man's life is short of days and full of trouble?) and yet even through every hard point and low point, even when I don't trust God because I cannot see what good this pain is doing in my life he still gives me grace. In fact when I look at the rough times I see the grace God has provided and the way he brought me to him and showed me himself through my trials. God's grace is not (thankfully!) dependent on whether I am good enough to deserve it. I know I never will be. God's grace is not just there to give me what I want, but to show me a better way than I could have imagined for myself. To help me accept and even embrace what I wouldn't have chosen for my own life. I am thankful that I can look ahead to the rest of my life and know that when hard things come God's grace will still be there. There have been many times in my life when I haven't been gracious to others, and yet God has never taken his grace away from me. I want to be constantly reminded of the grace shown to me and to share it with those who have maybe forgotten (just a little) or maybe have never even known this gracious God of mine