A year later...

Well, last December 13th was a special day for me. It was a day full of anxiousness and hope, I was so excited, yet so nervous. I was praying that if things didn't work out the way I wanted them to that God would help me to accept his will and not become bitter. December 13th 2009 was the day they transferred two little embryo's into my body. I remember we went to the doctor's office, and no lights were on. We opened the front door and there was no one at the receptionist desk. (keep in mind it was a Saturday) Jeremy and I kinda looked at each other hoping we didn't get the date wrong, but we knew we hadn't. We went back through the door to the exam rooms, and everyone was busy preparing for our transfer. Putting the little embryo's in was simple. It took Dr. Ripps all of 20 seconds. Waiting on the table I was just hoping and hoping that this IVF would work. How heartbroken I'd be if it didn't. I was supposed to wait 30 minutes before getting up. They want to make sure the embryo's aren't harmed and have a chance to settle. I could barely wait 15 minutes with all the water they have you drink beforehand, and I had to get up and go to the bathroom. Oh no, did I just mess everything up? I couldn't make it any longer. I'm just gonna have to trust God with this whole situation. If his will is for me to have these babies then he will have to keep them safe. We left the office not too long after that with the BETA (blood test) scheduled for December 24th. Oh my. Now my heart is beating. This could be either a really good Christmas, or the worst Christmas of my life. Lord, I just have to trust you. Two weeks went by. Should I take a home pregnancy test? I want to know so bad, yet I am terrified that it might be negative. I really don't want to get a false negative and be so upset if I am pregnant, that could hurt the bab(y)(ies). I ask Jeremy about it and he says NO! you just need to be patient and wait till the BETA. (I think he was a little nervous to know too) So I waited. December 24th came around and we once again drove to Pensacola to Dr. Ripps office and had blood drawn. Linda told me she'd call me around 2:00. We came back to Crestview and went grocery shopping at Wal-mart. Anything to pass the time away. Around 2:00 we got a phone call. I had already told Jeremy that I wanted him to hear first, then he could tell me if it was good or bad. I knew if it was bad news that I would be an emotional wreck, and I didn't want to be on the phone with Linda when that happened. Really I would just rather receive the bad news from Jeremy. Jeremy answers the phone and says, "hi Linda, Mhhhhmm, mhhhhm, o.k., o.k. I will." The whole time I'm watching his face, trying to see if it's good news or bad. At one point I kinda saw a little smile come across his face, but he was being very serious. I had a feeling it was good news. He hung up the phone. He tries to tell me it was negative, but can't hold his smile in, I knew it was positive! "We're gonna be parents" he tells me. I cried nervous, overjoyed tears. Linda wanted me to call back once he told me. I called her and she said, "Jeremy wasn't as excited as I thought he'd be" then I explained what he was attempting to do and she just laughed. What a journey we've made in the past year. From the little tiny ball of cells (above) to the sweet, precious, happy baby below. I love Jakob more than words could ever say. I will always be amazed at the way he came into being and in awe of the Great God who formed and created him. I love Dr. Ripps and all his staff, but had God not allowed it I wouldn't have my son today. I praise God for the wonderful works he has done for me. What a difference a year makes... Psalm 107:13- Then they cried unto the LORD in their trouble, and he saved them out of their distresses. 14- He brought them out of darkness and the shadow of death, and brake their bands in sunder. 15- Oh that men would praise the LORD for his goodness, and for his wonderful works to the children of men! God is great indeed!