Monday, December 21, 2009

Saying goodbye...

Losing the ones we love is never easy. Even knowing that they trusted Jesus as their personal savior and are sharing in the joys of Heaven doesn't help the pain of missing them in this life. Today one of the most important people in my life will be taken off of life support, and he will pass on to Heaven. My Uncle Jim (my great uncle) is so important to me and my family, and we will have a hole in our hearts that will never be filled. To understand his importance in our lives I have to dredge up some memories that could be very sad, but they are not, thanks to Uncle Jim and Aunt Betty. Please excuse me for bringing up some very personal feelings, but this is my blog, and this post will help me so much in the years to come. Also, alot of you who read this blog have met, or even spent a great deal of time with Aunt Betty and Uncle Jim, so you love them too. Growing up my grandparents got mad at my dad for something...don't really know what, but I think it was because we didn't go to Tampa for Christmas or something like that. From that point on when we went to Tampa they were not at home...It's hard for me to imagine this as a mother, who sees how her parents adore her little boy, how you could ever miss out on your grandchild's life by choice. Well, it happened to us. We never missed out on a thing though, because we had a wonderful set of (chosen) grandparents in my dad's Aunt and Uncle. Every Easter growing up we'd be at their house. We'd color eggs, and go to their Church for Easter Sunday. Every Thanksgiving we'd eat dinner at their house, I even remember a few where I was sick, and puking my guts up on Thanksgiving day, but we were always in Georgia. We vacationed at their Lakehouse and visited whenever we could. I never even thought about what I was missing, because I had no reason to. Once I got married I wrote Aunt Betty and Uncle Jim a letter, thanking them for taking us in when our own family rejected us. I told them that they will always in my heart be my grandparents. They didn't have to be, but they chose to, that makes it so special. Most of you know when I was about 15 years old (Carissa was a baby) we started to see our grandparents, and got to know them more like family.My grandma actually apologized to my dad, and the relationship was mended. There is no bitterness in my heart towards them, I love them both, but they did miss out. My memories of Uncle Jim are so precious. He was a soul winner and a great Christian witness. He loved our family, and he'd get all teary eyed when we showed up at his door, and almost bring you to tears when we left his house. He loved us so much. With every loved one I lose Heaven seems so much more near, and I thank God I have the assurance that I will be with Uncle Jim again someday.

3 comments:

Dana said...

I am so glad that u had ur aunt and uncle to fill that part of ur life!! My aunt and uncle did the same thing for me b/c all of my grandparents had passed when I was very little! It just makes it more special when someone chooses to fill that role for you..some grandparents are just made!! I am sooooooo sorry for your loss!!! I still get so inspired by your faith and how you deal with all that life gives you..the good and the bad!! I know we will all reunite one day in heaven and what a day that will be! Love U sweety!!

Jillian said...

Praise the Lord for family that steps in. I have so many of those feelings about my Nanny. I still miss her dearly, but am looking forward to the day that I get to be with her for eternity.

I love you dear and am praying for you all. It is never easy to let a loved one go, but thank God we have the hope of seeing them again.

<3 j

shelly said...

So sorry that Uncle Jim passed but he was probably ready, if he had been having physical problems. Just think, Uncle Jim's Christmas present is that he gets to be with Jesus during his birthday. What more could you ask for?! I am so glad that we can rejoice in the fact that he is with Jesus in Heaven and we will all see him again. Praying for all of ya'll and especially Aunt Betty. See you this Sunday, Lord Willing! Love you and give your family hugs and tell them I love them too.