this wednesday is the day

I went to pensacola today, just like last time the lining of my uterus was so thin until the last minute. It only took four days of shots though. This cycle has been so much easier than last time. I asked the nurses about it. I remember last time I went in almost in tears and I told the girl I hoped it was time for the hcg shot because I just felt so miserable. I cannot explain how I felt to you, it just felt like at any time my guts were gonna fall out. The nurse said from month to month your pain will vary. Thank God this month was easy. I have been so much more weepy the whole time this month, but I'll take weepy compared to pain any day. I talked to my mom today after I saw the doctor and she said she just feels like this is going to happen for us. We will have our own child. I feel that way also. Whether it happens this time or another time I just know God is going to do this for us. When I had the ultrasound today the nurse asked me if I brought my hcg medicine with me. Fortunately I thought if I didn't bring it they'd need it today so I brought it. Thankfully Jill gave me the shot, because my mother-in-law is out of town and neither Jeremy nor my mom wanted to give it to me. So on Wednesday we report in at 11:00 and give our sample. By 2 or 3 on Wednesday this cycle will also come to an end. It seemed to go so fast this time and with such a minimum amount of stress. Please pray for us that even if it doesn't work... which let's face it the odds are not that great... that Jeremy and I would have the grace to get through this. If this doesn't work we have alot of decisions ahead of us and we want to do what's right. We appreciate all the thoughts and prayers. I'll write again on wednesday. <3<3<3