Scatterbrained...

Well, most of you know that Jakob and I are moving back to Crestview at the end of the month. If you didn't know, well, Jakob and I are moving back to Crestview at the end of the month. Here's what happened, it's an even longer story than we had first thought. 
Last Saturday night my mom called me and said they drove out to our neighborhood (so my dad could hang a deer stand on Pastor Humphries property) and they saw a moving van outside our house. The guy was taking an empty dolly into the house, so they assumed he's moving out. Had we gotten any notice from him? Well, no we hadn't. Immediately Jeremy starts e-mailing people from our rental agency trying to find out what's going on. Our mortgage payment is due on Monday and we haven't heard a word about this from anybody. Sunday someone from the rental agency e-mails and says no they had no notice he was moving. They said they'd get in touch with him on Monday and try to find out what's up. The renter said he'd notified someone that works at the agency in August telling them he'd be out of the house by the end of September. The person Jeremy was talking to said he didn't notify them because everyone at the agency knows a notice to vacate must be in writing.
 Anyways, now we're faced with the fact that we owe a mortgage payment right now. We also cannot afford our rent in this house as well as our mortgage payment for multiple months until we can rent the house again (last time it took 8 months to find a renter) so we had to decide what to do. We thought about looking at cheaper housing in Labelle, but it is just not even an option. As I stated before this town has very little rental properties and anything available in a price range we could afford is in a very bad part of town where it would not be safe for us to live. Our county has the highest unemployment rate in the state of Florida so it's not like I can go get a job and we can squeak by. The only option we really feel we have is to move all of our belongings back home into our house.
 Me and Jakob will live back home and Jeremy will stay here and work and look for another job. His boss from back home says the job @ JG should be advertised in October and hired in November. Obviously we're hoping that comes through but we're not counting on it because they keep doing this to us over and over. There's a couple other opportunities coming up so he will just have to do some serious searching for a job closer to home. In the mean time I will get Jakob into speech therapy in Crestview as well as hopefully a "day care" type program where he can be with other kids a couple hours a day. I feel much better about putting him in a head start program up there than I do down here.
 We were very nervous about what our house might look like on the inside considering the guy left in the middle of the night and gave no notice. Jeremy's mom went by and checked it out for us and it looks great. Spotless. Praise the Lord for that. It turns out after all was said and done the guy had given his 30 day notice. The agent who dealt with our rental (who happened to be his niece) had been fired sometime in August so she never told them he was leaving or filled out any paperwork. Everything has worked out o.k. so far. We got a few boxes packed yesterday. 
I am very emotional about the whole thing. The part that is hardest for me is the unknown. I don't know when our family will be able to be back together. I don't know if Jeremy will get the job back home or if we'll have to move again and figure out once again what to do with the house we own. I don't know how Jakob will do without his daddy at home every night. I know I will miss my hubby, that's not a hard one to figure out. 
Jeremy will be staying at the Pastor's house down here. They have a really nice travel trailer that company stays in when they visit and they've offered it to Jeremy. I am glad he can stay near our church family because I know they'll take good care of him and keep him company. Even the how's of trying to run 2 households are pretty much unknown to us right now. 
I thank everyone who has been praying for us and offering words of encouragement. I haven't really said anything about all of this on FB yet because honestly I don't want to talk about it or think about it any more than I already do. I figure I'll give it another week or two then announce it. 
Yesterday my endocrinologist (or doctor wonderful as I like to call him) was being a total jerk to me and I broke down crying. He told me he thought I was depressed. I was thinking dude, you have no idea how much I've got going on right now. The last thing I needed was a rude doctor who wouldn't let me speak or ask about a medication that I am greatly in need of. I didn't tell him how I really felt, I just wanted to get out of his office and never have to enter it again. No more doctor wonderful. Praise the Lord for small favors :) 
I know this post is pretty scattered and random. That's about how I feel my brain is right now. Scattered and random. It does help to get my thoughts/fears/ feelings out of my brain and onto this page. If you think of us please pray that we will have peace and that God will work this whole situation out for us (he's the only one that can!) and please know that I'm not just always asking you girls to pray for me, I pray for you too. That is one reason I'm so thankful for blogs. You can be honest with me and I can be honest with you and we can all pray for each other. 
xoxo
-Shauna