You know you're a control freak when...

So I was sitting around thinking the other day and I thought of a situation that truly makes me nervous. I start to feel a little anxious, like I need to escape my own thoughts every time I consider this "thing."  Mostly I just try to push it out of my thoughts for a later time. Well this time I began to remind myself of God's role in the "thing" and how he will work it out according to his plan. All of a sudden I thought "But what if God doesn't want this "thing" to work out the way I want it to work out?" As if I would or even could deny God the power over that situation because his will doesn't match with mine. I kind of had to laugh at myself. What a control freak! I think a lot of fear in my life comes from not being in control of things. It gives you a helpless feeling and no one wants to feel out of control. I know that God has control of every situation. I know he will do the right thing, even if it's not what I want, it will be right because God only does right. So I commit this "thing" to God once again and just hope and pray that when the time comes I can trust him and his work. I know we all talk about faith. We're Christians, everything in our lives revolve around faith, but as I look at and examine my life I see so many instances where I turn to my own power, my own wit, my own courage when faced with a "thing" in life. The practice of faith is something that I think must be learned, through the reading of God's word, but also (this is the hardest part!) through the exercise of faith in day to day living. I wish it was easy. Read the Bible, read a few books and (BAM!) I have faith to move mountains, but it isn't so. So I will continue to remind myself to rely on God and keep laying my future in his hands (which isn't so easy for this control freak :)